Friday, December 29, 2006

Happy New Year!!!

Hi all!

Thanks to all you well-wishers out there that have made my x'mas just a little much more better and meaningful. I've not been blogging because of something which I will be posting up soon. Just like to say that everything's hunky dory and pretty well-rounded in terms of highs and lows in the year 2006.

In fact, it has been such an eventful year for me, changing jobs, getting married, moving house. Oh yes, everyone keeps asking me when's the ceremony? I'd like to say that I'll probably serve my tea to both sides of my folks and that will be that. But I seem to have friends who are ready to whip out their wallets to do a generous bit of charity (i.e. me), so perhaps when I'm finally debt-free, I might actually book a restaurant for them so they can shower me with their gifts and cash-cheques. This debt-free thing, while it might occur when I'm alive, will definitely occur when I'm in the grave, so the dinner amounts to the same thing ('choi choi!!!').


recently, i have been taken for a ride on Neil Gaiman's new book 'Fragile things'. if you like freakiness and sadism, this is it. It's a collection of short stories, one of which I'm totally disturbed, which is why it makes for such a good read. For him, it might be best to leave reason and logic on the doorstep before entering, he is never sensible and always fantastical.

When I have time, I'll share his shorter stories here.


Today, topic is about nightmares. Someone once told me that dreams and nightmares stops where the knowledge ends. Eg, if you have never been kissed, then you may dream of it, but you'll not feel the lips. it'll be like empty air.


hmm....actually to digress abit--- if this person is correct, how come when I dreamt this porno-sci-fi dream where I got raped hibitually by my robotic hubby, I can actually feel his small sharp tentacle jabbing into me? The feeling was so profound and utterly indescribable that I woke up startled by the wierdness. Almost immediately I slap my head for stupidity and tried my best to go back to sleep, hoping to dream out the entire episode so I can experience the rendering without going through the actual event.

That was back in 1998.


And seriously, you ain't old till you start recalling the exact year instead of saying, 'last time,....'

More about that dream next time.


For this nightmare, I had it in 1997. My family had moved to a mansionette to make more room for my lil' brother. I had a big bedroom all to myself. It must have been during the time when my dad was retrenched and trying his hardest to get another job during the economic downturn. The family was running fairly well on savings and my mum was pulling double-loads giving tuition and keeping us fed. We kids all worried, nevertheless.

I can never forget that night out of the many nights of slumber and stress. It was dead quiet in my room because I had the windows closed because it was raining. Only the whirring fan broke the abject silence and ear-ringing. It was meant to be a cosy night ensconced in my bed, which was placed against the wall. I have the habit of sleeping with my back right against a solid object, a remnant learnt from another nightmare.

The square room was cast in grey and blue shadows-- a still-frame if not for the fan turning silently in one quiet corner.



So that was when I woke up. Blearily opened 1 eye and about to burrow into the blankets before I noticed my big bro. He was in the middle of my room.



A long straight figure with his crumpled head slumped. Suspended, he swung to and to from my ceiling light. Somehow he had shifted my study chair from the study table to the middle of the room and used it to hang himself from the ceiling.



What made the whole situation more horrifying was that although his body amd limbs was deathly still, he swung violently to and fro.



'Gor...' I whimpered, hoping to squeeze against the wall harder but paralysed.



In response, the body swung harder. I knew then that it wanted to snap the rope to get to me....



My heart thudded so strongly I woke up hyperventilating. For the longest time, I couldn't fall asleep because I was too scared to close my eyes. I was sure that not only will I have the same dream again, it will be a continuation of it, this time, the rope will snap and I wouldn't be able to open my eyes.



If only I could also peel my eyes off my study chair, which was exactly where my nightmare left it.



In the middle of the room and beneath the ceiling lights.



Out!



Akk



Happy New Year!

10 comments:

Adrenaline said...

wah lau!! it's happy new year and u scare us with this horror story!! =)

oei, i also live in masionette now leh. but lucky, no ceiling lights hanging one. only got those down lights. heh.

and wat's wif the secrecy abt ur elder brother?! is he hot??

happy new year to u too. hope u'll have less nightmares in time to come.

ah fatt's fan said...

Never knew you actually have an elder brother. Dreams are just dreams, not to be taken seriously. I wish you a happy 2007!

lil bro said...

O_O
Wahlau.. sibeh scary.

ivanny said...

eh... u have elder bro?! never include on blog until now ar?

eh that dream is damn scary can?! and to find the chair in that position after u wake up, double scary!
wah lau... new year leh missy! lol

Ang Ku Kueh said...

adrenaline:

oooH!!! masionette already?!! wahhhh...how many kids u planning?! I come from family of 3 siblings, so you have just the right size house for it liao, hehehehehe.....

happy new year! i just remembered so i write lor. incidentally, my elder bro will agree with me he is not hot. my younger bro is much hotter, hor, chuikueh??

ah fatt's fan:

hey! happy 2007 also!! dun worry, i know such things cannot take seriously. :)

lil' bro:

eh....issit?


ivanny:

happy new year! i've had an elder bro for 26?27? yrs already liao...never got featured because he shy and he dun read my blog, hah!

Ensui said...

I agree with Adrenaline. This must be a first that someone has given a morbid and scary start to the new year of 2007. o.o Lets hope its not an indication of things to come. :p

Happy New Year anyway. :)

Jaschocolate said...

Scary leh... dont give me heart attack, okie? Wishing you happy new year :p

Sibeh Sian said...

Walau, sibeh scary. And it's the same room that you kena the bangla incident right????

And happy New Year ah :D!

Ang Ku Kueh said...

ensui:

oh oh! i just dun have anything to write, so i wrote this so i dun forget mah.....mo lah, good start to the year to tell ppl about nightmares. once u say, wun come true!!

jas:

was it really? i didn't think it was scary....hmmm....i got worse ones!!! wanna hear?!!! heheeh....

lorenzo:

wah! u remembered! it was the same room!!! arghh!! never thought of it. the room now give to chuikueh liao...must ask him if he got any other 'stuff' happening.:)

Jaschocolate said...

come give me your best shot, okie? I see got heart attack or not.. :p