Friday, September 09, 2005

Missing A........


Hi all!


I’m usually a genuinely happy person. I mean, I try to be. One of the most important things I’ve learnt is to be happy.



Like, looking at the mirror and saying ‘I’m happy’ for 50 times.........


It does actually help, OK? Veteran ‘I’m happy’ chanter down here dispensing advice. Even when Life deals u a bad blow, don’t mope, don’t collapse and don’t give up.




Just go find a mirror.....




And ignore all the flaws on your face during said chanting........




And no digging!




It’s damn corny but it’s true. Many times during research, months of preparations can all go down the drain in just 1 single day due to just 1 stoopid mistake that occurs in the space of 5 min. The worse is having to accept that it really really really is your fault and no one else’s becos the project is your baby.



Since I’ve given my baby back to my professor, I’ve been floating like a freaking happy balloon freewheeling in the sky....




Suddenly, there's less acne and more visible facial skin. A lighter step even with the same shoes.




Even also kena walk-peach-flower-luck and got myself a new, marvellous addition to my life.



I’m a happy camper right now. All in all, there is nothing but a freaking improvement in my life.......so ok, have to start giving Ah Ma 50% of my ini-machiam salary to show my deep appreciation for her homemade dinners (ahem) and freshly laundered clothes to wear everyday.



But essentially, life is good.



It’s hard enough to go to work without a big grin splitting the face and I have to curb the urge to point my finger at a few idiotic colleagues and say, ‘Is your life as good as mine??’



Wah lau, damn near did it a few times, but I didn’t. Mean lah, but some of these colleagues drive me crazy........



For one thing, most of them dress in short short skirts ala NUS babes (which they are actually....damn...) and like to flash their lovely long thighs at me. I have a suspicious feeling it's a conspiracy out to get my ego.....everyone is wearing such teensy-weensy skirts nowadays.... The thing is, if they wore something that showed off half their boob balls, I wouldn’t have minded, becos I got boobs also.



But the thighs.....the thighs I dun have and these, these they wiggle and swiggle about and prance like young geldings.........


Another thing, they have seen a pic of A after sneaking over my shoulder one day when I was mooning, eye glazed, and said something that would have deeply wounded me had my skin not been tougher than the canteen’s mee pok tah.


‘Wow! How did you managed to get someone that looks like this?!’


Choujidan! How, indeed! If they had been more sarcastic, I would have gone straight home to bang my mum’s wooden clogs on some red paper dolls with their passport-sized photos and burn holes thru the eyes with joss-stick. But since they look genuinely speechless, I was feeling more charitable and only prayed for the elevator to jam on their way home.........



Alright, enough bitching! If you’ve not realised, I’m in my PMS phase now, so although I’d like to put (another!) disclaimer that says, ‘anything and everything that I blurt out is not my fault but me hormones working overtime’, I cannot.


Becos I’m a woman of Science......



F***
(see? I even censor for the sake of underaged eyes....).


Must.......control.........my.........temper........




Kaaaa-BBOOMMMM!!!!!! Posted by Picasa





Today, I just admitted to myself I may be feeling a bit bluer than my normal happy self.....A has been too busy and he doesn’t work normal hours. I've been pretty busy too, but when I’m free, well..... I’m really free.....that’s why I’m writing this blog now.....



......OK, so I miss him.... a bit ........... not a lot ......
..........*sniff*.........



I kinda hope to have more work, becos at least it can take my mind off the moping. I often wondered how come those Korean and Jap babes still managed to catch the Yan dao when all they do is cast their puffy red-eyes and stuffy faces at the camera forlornly. I mean, when I cry, I gush like Old Faithful and snort and make those irritating hiccups that seriously gives my throat grief. Moping afterwards gives me wrinkly black eyebags and makes my frens afraid to approach me for fear of enduring another geyser gush or seeing Sadako.....


10 yrs ago before, when fren J just knew me.....,


J: ‘I’ve seen u around, rite?’


AKK: ‘Yes, I’m your junior.’


J: ‘I remember you….you don’t look very frenly.’


AKK: ‘I’ve got PMS.’


J: ‘What? All the time?’



.......... -__- ........




OK, so I look very du lan most of the time......not just when I mope.......but 10 yrs down the road, J just popped another remark yesterday over kopi with me.




‘Are u depressed? Or working too hard?’



‘Why? Do I look it?’



Well..... Not really......but...



‘Say it, man!'



‘Well, U do look a bit tired.........’


‘.....ok....’


‘.......and old-er........’


‘........’



.......So yesterday I was looking my du lan self........


......add a few years for the ‘a bit tired’ comment......


........add double for ‘and old-er...........


.......And you can put another 5 years on me in comparision to all those young Giseles prancing in the office .........



....... After some quick mental calculations, I looked about 35 over kopi.....




‘What u mean......a bit?’



*sensing trouble...* ‘A bit is a bit lah.’



‘A little bit or a big bit?’






I need to shut up right about now.......



And perhaps it’s time to invest in some low tops that expose half my boob balls.....



A just smsed to say he can’t meet today....



Oh well, time to go find a mirror........
And I promise not to dig .......





OUT!


AKK
PS. Following the spirit of Lancerlord, 5 things I'm thankful for today.
1. My lil' bro's blog
2. My new breadmaker :)
3. Kong Bah Pau for lunch and Lontong for dinner
4. Finding the Incredible Hulk's Pic
5. My boobs

29 comments:

Lynne said...

Cheer up gal, at least you've got A, your health, and your family. Somebody ain't got any of those ... I know PMS sucks, it's a punishment to the female kind, not sure why we deserve it?!

Li-er said...

J.U.S.T * S.M.I.L.E! =)

ivanny said...

haha... cheer up gal... lol

stars_of_rain said...

PMS sucks. The cramps are worse. :'(

You should go blow up A's pic and paste it on the wall in front of your bed so that you can see him every single night before you fall asleep. If not, you can kiss him goodnight also ma. Hehe.

Zhe Bin said...

Although I don't always hypnotise myself like you do (guffaws), I always convince myself there are surely those deprived bastards whom are worse off than me. Muahahaha!

And... you can flaunt your boobs too, mah. = P

Winter said...

akk> i noe how it feels to miss someone badly once.. *hugs*

but he will see u soon & made up for the lost time with u..

& by the way, those people are just plain jealous when they say how u managed to hook him up.. :P

Ang Ku Kueh said...

lynne:

ya lor, why we deserve it ah? even 2 years of NS dun come close....hehehe...but reservist does...


li-er:

megawatt-*GRINZ* :)

Ivanny:

hey, will miss u when u go off to chiong suah! be good hor! :)

stars:

wah! I din think of that leh! ur right! I should go blow up his pic and chant 'I'm happy' to him instead! :) great idea!

zhebin:

flaunting flaunting......if i have the courage...*gulp*

vanna:

oh well, just suffering PMS lah, normally I'll keep busy. as for them being surprised...they do look very very surprised leh...hehehehe...

barneysaurus said...

Go get your hot Milo! And primrose oil! Very good one :)!

And I think yr colleagues are just jealous lor, keke ;)....

eileen said...

hey,next time anyone ask u how u ever get someone like A,look them straight in the eye and say :

because im a modern woman with both beauty and brains. and i am definitely not at all shallow like those low-bustline-togging giggling assholes who think they're so pretty and act like they're fricking innocent 16 yrs old and know nuts abt sex when they probably had it. because im me AKK(Insert ur real name) and because i dun try and act like who i am not.

tts why A chose me.

dun shrink away and pray tt their lifts will jam. be confident of urself.to those who are bitter and sarca or surprised u've got a guy like him, look them straight in the eye and tell them a million and onr reasons why u are so much better than them and that this is exactly WHY u've gotten urself a guy like A.

ya know wat? It definitely helps alot u used to be from rv. i found myself thinkin abt rv girls when i typed "shallow low-bustline-togging giggling assholes who think they're so pretty and act like they're fricking innocent when they r not". im sure u get what i mean.

and ur brother said he's 17 in a reply to someone's comment. In case im right abt ur bro's birthyr 1989 and my math doesnt fails me... pls help remind ur brother that he's 16.

reading all ur entries from the archives.I know that u are someone really nice and totally deserving of ur A. =)

eileen said...

*a million and one reasons


*having read all ur en3s from the archives..

daniellekris said...

I know how you feel. sometimes i get darn tired of how things work in this society too, nothing wrong in feeling lousy (or looking du lan hah). Dont have to answer to others by trying to look happy when you just dont feel happy, esp. when the colleagues ard you are such horrid ppl.

and ya lah, army guys do work wierd hours. maybe tt's the reason why your darling took such a long time to find his significant-other.. you're definitely an understanding gf to him and that's why you deserve him! Ignore the little girls in your office and shit them in their face! ;P

Tempest Blue said...

I tried what you just did.
I stared at the mirror and started to affirm to myself.
"I am happy. I am happy. I am happy..."


But I can't do it. I can't help myself.

I....

I dug.

Derrick said...

nah where got so easy. I still don't understand how to be happy. teach me teach me teach me teach me.

:(

Anonymous said...

dig what? dig what?!!

haha why you never say back...CANNOT HAR?!

:D

-wei ning

stars_of_rain said...

Akk! Go check out today's Sunday Times. You are featured on the newspapers! 3rd page from the back.

Hmm.. I think you are going to receive even more publicity that you might not want.

But but but, Congrats!

averilchan said...

Sit cross legged facing the mirror, and go HUMMMMMMMM........
All is calm and peaceful...

If that doesn't work, try singing Ji Pa Bahn without the blah blahs...

=)

Ang Ku Kueh said...

barney:

hehehe....and i tot it was becos they wore coloured contacts...

eileen:

relac relac...hehehe....u sound more disgruntled than me siah! relac...as for bro, I let him do as he pleases, it really is his blog afterall, so I'm not going to chup jit kah in......how would u know I'm definitely 26 either ya? hehehe...(i may be 30 and u'll never get it out of me!!!) :))) cheer up, gal! I'm really ok! :) and thanks so much for your comments! I should just stand up to them, hehehe...


danielle:

muhahahaha...shit in their faces... how to do that?! hehehe....bang clogs easier..heheh thanks for the vote of confidence!


tempest:

I'm shocked! discipline! hehehe...

derrick:

hey, just think of 5 things to be thankful for everyday...:) sometimes it takes the easiest things to make a person happy, but it also takes the longest time for ppl to realise and be convinced that becoming happy can be this simple.:)

wei ning:

hahahaha.....too shocked to answer lah! where got such tactless ppl one?! hahaha....

stars:

hahahaha....thanks thanks, but i dun think will have much impact lah. the tomorrow one definitely a bigger issue...hehehe...but I'll cut out and frame it anyway! :)


averil:

muahahah...i was thinking if see mirror got ur face to look back at you, everyday can be damn happy, gal! heheehe....the JPB song got one is word-perfect already, maybe just play on media, hehehe...

at82 said...

Yo AKK! u into today's ST leh. They promoting your jit pa ban song! maybe u can cut album soon lol...

averilchan said...

I knew I wasn't wrong about you Idol! You're FAMOUS! I had friends SMSing me early in the morning today about your ST fame...Why? Cause I've been humming your JPB tune since the day I downloaded it.

Time to set up AKK FC loh...how how? -winks-

Anonymous said...

WAR AT ROCKSON!!! EXTRA EXTRA!!!

frenie said...

famous liao girl

heehee.

congratssssssssss

its ok to pms. Mine is also permanent.

PensiveTabby said...

Hiya!

Hope u are feeeling better.

I am sure A has all the reasons in the world to love you, not to mention that you are a chiobu(my frd told me one) :D

Remember no one, other than yourself can put you down.

Smile!! :D

Ang Ku Kueh said...

at82:

ya ya, i know, hahahah....actually got a long-ditance call just to be told abt it. anyways, I've removed the song links liao, heheh... I'm allergic to exposure. can ppl pls be nice and ask permission before dishing me out, hehehe...pun intended, of cos.


averil:

in all seriousnes.......I think it's time YOU do YOUR OWN VERSION!!! how abt it?!!! hehheeh, then I'll wave pom-pom outside your recording studio!!! how how?! I'm serious!!!! yayyy!!!! :)

FC club? nah...see above reply to at82.:)

anon:

hur hur...damn funny guy, is rockson....

frenie:

hahaha...permanent PMS hor!poor zabors we are!!!

hobbes:

awww....so sweet!!! *big sharky grinz* :)

Cake said...

GASP!

I also got the forever PMS look.

that's why ah lian always want to beat me up.

Be happy ok!! look at his photo. Think of his six pack. He'll be by your side mentally.

Zen|th said...

Cheer up. Things will definitely get better soon. =)

nadnut said...

muaaahahaha. here here, give you something to do to keep your mind of A.

http://nadnut.blogspot.com/2005/09/7-things-because-birthday-girl-miss.html

tagged u! ;)

Ah 9 said...

i like 3 and 5. LoL

Ang Ku Kueh said...

cuckoo cake:

heheh....okie dokie, i'm ok liao, heheh...

zenith:

it did get better! :)

nadnut:

hur hur, see? i follow ur orders! i so nice! now wat? eheheh...thanks gal, it's a good exercise.

ah 9:

hur hur...:)

nadnut said...

lol. just dont tag me next time... hahahaha!